Let me just defend myself from the wrong accusations of people throwing at me..
I've heard so much.. and some are too painful to bear..
I'm just playing deaf and poker face but I'm not numb. I feel so much sadness more than anyone can imagine. But do I need to show them in the newsroom while I'm working?
Because if I can really do that, maybe it would be easier for me to forget my feelings.
Most of them think I jumped in and out of the relationship so fast.. That is below the belt.
Or someone just told me straight to my face, "hindi ka niya natagalan noh?!".. That really hurts..
And the other one is that "mukhang masaya pa raw ako after the break up" ..
Do people really think I have 100% numbness inside? Think again.
I cried at the stairs of the basement.. I cried inside the cr.. in front of the lobby. I cried in the corners of GMA.
It's one of the worst situations I'm trying to face because I can't express my emotions fully.. And honestly, it drains me day by day.
If he and I didnt say something about us, well because we don't owe anyone any explanation..
It's just sad that in depressed and down moments like these, here they are.. adding more to our suffering..
They might think I don't look at him.
But deep in the corner of my mind, he's been there all the time..
Loving doesn't cease in ending a relationship..
So now, I guess they should know who's really hurting right now..
I've heard so much.. and some are too painful to bear..
I'm just playing deaf and poker face but I'm not numb. I feel so much sadness more than anyone can imagine. But do I need to show them in the newsroom while I'm working?
Because if I can really do that, maybe it would be easier for me to forget my feelings.
Most of them think I jumped in and out of the relationship so fast.. That is below the belt.
Or someone just told me straight to my face, "hindi ka niya natagalan noh?!".. That really hurts..
And the other one is that "mukhang masaya pa raw ako after the break up" ..
Do people really think I have 100% numbness inside? Think again.
I cried at the stairs of the basement.. I cried inside the cr.. in front of the lobby. I cried in the corners of GMA.
It's one of the worst situations I'm trying to face because I can't express my emotions fully.. And honestly, it drains me day by day.
If he and I didnt say something about us, well because we don't owe anyone any explanation..
It's just sad that in depressed and down moments like these, here they are.. adding more to our suffering..
They might think I don't look at him.
But deep in the corner of my mind, he's been there all the time..
Loving doesn't cease in ending a relationship..
So now, I guess they should know who's really hurting right now..
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