Mingming (>^.^<)
Love doesn’t cease.. with or without perfect goodbye.
Forgive me but I have to spill some lingering thoughts from this troubled mind.
Two years had passed since that day I left a romantic relationship, perhaps I’m not sure if I can call it a relationship due to its vagueness.

Still, I don’t seize the liberty to get into a serious commitment. My door is open but every time someone tries to come in, apprehension and fear of getting hurt blocks the way.
I love the freedom of singlehood. No rules to break, no restrictions to obey, no expectations to meet but no one fills the emptiness inside.

As I was contemplating about my past relationships, I realized that they ended up without closure, like cases unclosed. Maybe a long life awaits me to unveil the reasons and unspoken explanation through time. That’s beneficial in my part!

Closing a relationship that is bound to die down and saying the right words to convey the hackneyed goodbye lines such as "i don't want to end this but..", "we have to this for us to grow.. etc"
Will these lines satiate the thousand questions in one's mind? Is it still necessary for a person to be able to move on? Probably, it is needed so one won’t have to wait for the other. It's the seal of a fading love enveloped by rejection and frustration.

Maybe it’s not, because people have much things to deal with and get worried about than tracing the root of an unsuccessful chemistry. Most likely, it really depends on how much affection and love you invested to that someone who went away. And I’m still uncertain about it.

And to be perfectly honest, I must say that closure is a respect that everyone must receive in this constellation of different relationships called life.
It's the finale of a love story where one can address his heart's epilogue to his/her significant other for the very last time.

Thus, the one who goes out must shut the door of someone's heart closed.

Mingming (>^.^<)

"If a picture paints a thousand.. then why can't i paint you"

Who's this guy? perhaps one of you will raise an eyebrow while asking me..

I can't believe that after almost two years, i still can't post a single picture of me with him. how pathetic.

Since this is my first blogpost of year 2011.. i'll give clues..

He's the perfect stranger who shakened my life..

He's the unseen watermark of the lines I scribble in writings for the past two years..

He's the uninvited guest in my dreams who has asked for apology a hundred times..

He's the bittersweet chocolate that savored my unsatisfied hunger and thirst for affection..

He's like the sun.. brighter than anything that one can gaze from the earth..

And even if i closed my eyes and stop staring at it, I can still see its blinding reflection. 

He's the pop up video playing in my mind whenever I sing or hear the Beyonce's Halo song and Katy Perry's Thinking of You..

And whoever he is..
I'll tell you..

It took a lot of courage to let someone as devilly beautiful as him .. get inside my heart..