If mending a broken heart is like solving a math equation, definitely it would be easier for someone like me (a mathematician as what my classmates called me wayback highschool and college days)
I'm best in trigonometry, physics, statistics, anything that has to do with numeric symbols, calculating figures and providing solutions to seemingly tough math problems.
But there's one thing im not good at..
honestly, i'm not good at moving on..
How I wish it's like a dyslexia than can be corrected with reading again the lines. It's not.
It took me three years to be completely healed from my first break up.
My excuse back then.. it was the first and nobody told me that it would hurt like hell..
the worst part.. no one taught me how to prepare for the transition of being committed to going solo again.
My mistake.. I gave much and stepped one foot ahead..
Then out of a blue, just last year, the second one came with promises sprouting from his lips.
That time, I was thinking i shouldn't expect too much so it would not hurt if we parted ways.
Within me was the excitement to be reborn with new love and admiration..
This love illusion kept dragging me back to him.
But life has always been tricky to me.. he cheated on me..
and i did the same on him..
My mistake.. I trusted too much and too fast..
I moved on but not completely over with the painful experience.
Still trying to convince myself that I should not generalize that all men were like him..
that i just stumbled with a wrong guy..
Then another one came unexpectedly..
It didn't go far to a relationship.
I am still mesmerized with the feelings, albeit I resigned to fact that it will be requited.
It is as close to being in love..
Yet, i decided to move on and say bye-bye to that delusion of him smiling back at me.
Some can quickly jump into another relationship recklessly.
In my case, time seems to slow thrice when I decipher what-went-wrong scenarios.
Love has its own timeframe.
and we should not hurry things..
you should not hurry my feelings..
I'm best in trigonometry, physics, statistics, anything that has to do with numeric symbols, calculating figures and providing solutions to seemingly tough math problems.
But there's one thing im not good at..
honestly, i'm not good at moving on..
How I wish it's like a dyslexia than can be corrected with reading again the lines. It's not.
It took me three years to be completely healed from my first break up.
My excuse back then.. it was the first and nobody told me that it would hurt like hell..
the worst part.. no one taught me how to prepare for the transition of being committed to going solo again.
My mistake.. I gave much and stepped one foot ahead..
Then out of a blue, just last year, the second one came with promises sprouting from his lips.
That time, I was thinking i shouldn't expect too much so it would not hurt if we parted ways.
Within me was the excitement to be reborn with new love and admiration..
This love illusion kept dragging me back to him.
But life has always been tricky to me.. he cheated on me..
and i did the same on him..
My mistake.. I trusted too much and too fast..
I moved on but not completely over with the painful experience.
Still trying to convince myself that I should not generalize that all men were like him..
that i just stumbled with a wrong guy..
Then another one came unexpectedly..
It didn't go far to a relationship.
I am still mesmerized with the feelings, albeit I resigned to fact that it will be requited.
It is as close to being in love..
Yet, i decided to move on and say bye-bye to that delusion of him smiling back at me.
Some can quickly jump into another relationship recklessly.
In my case, time seems to slow thrice when I decipher what-went-wrong scenarios.
Love has its own timeframe.
and we should not hurry things..
you should not hurry my feelings..
